Why Am I Even Considering It?

I know I don't want to go, it would never be worth the money, and there isn't enough time in the world for me to lose enough weight to show my face there, but... my high school 20th reunion is next fall. I was never really good friends with most of the people in my class; I had 2 best friends, and everyone else pretty much had a face and a name. I never really fit in there, not a true nerd and not an athlete, and not a pot-head either. I did pretty well with grades, but wasn't the top in my class. I wasn't really smart or popular or pretty or anything outstanding. I'm sure most of my classmates would remember me, but only because how many red headed twins do you know?

My high school was in New Jersey, and boy is it hard to go back there. It is soooo expensive. I guess if you never left you'd be used to it, but I moved away right after graduation (literally - I stayed a week at my grandma's house while the movers packed up our stuff and left, the day after graduation) and it seems so crowded and snooty now. I miss my town the way it used to be, but it won't ever be that again. So what would going to the reunion serve? And now that I don't have any family living in that area anymore, I have nowhere to stay either.

I googled some of my classmates, and it seems that some of them have done very well for themselves. I am impressed with their success. I wouldn't say I would be embarrassed to show up to be compared to them; after all, who else has 6 boys? LOL But I sure don't have anything to brag about. I didn't go to my 10th reunion, but it seemed like that was all about bragging. Maybe everyone is older and wiser now? I think I would actually consider going, just out of curiosity, if only I were 50 lbs lighter....

Chris' reunion was last year, and I really hate it that we missed that one. Unfortunately I was 8.5 months pg at the time and he just really didn't like the idea of my dropping the baby right there on the dinner table LOL. THAT sure would have been memorable! LOL Too bad it wasn't this year instead; with our move next week we will be very near his old hometown, and we could have attended, even pg. Oh well.

I hope that the reunion organizers for my class at least put up a website with pictures afterwards, so I can check and see what happened to everyone.