I'll admit, this time of year is hardest for me because his family all gathers and there is lots of laughing and lots of gifts flying and oohing and ahhing, but I sat there with a cheese knife. It is not totally MIL's fault; she doesn't know me well enough to be able to shop and just find things that she knows I would love. She did try in past years, but nothing was ever "right." So I don't blame her for the gift card. But if I still had my mother, we would still go do a family thing at her house (my dad stayed hiding out in Florida, sent up $25 for each of us and called himself done) and she would have found some cute little knicknacks and silly things that I would have loved. She might also have offered to take me out to eat alone, w/o kids or something like that. MIL took Chris out to see the Narnia movie. She didn't ask if I wanted to go. Of course, he is her son, and it is natural for her to favor him over me. But it still hurts to know that I don't have anyone anymore to love me the way she loves him. My Dad behaves toward me and my sisters more like an uncle than a dad. That's the way he is, and I accept him that way, but it still means that at Christmas time the lonliness gets rubbed in.
Here are the pictures:
Christmas Breakfast

Levi's Breakfast

Boys Waiting

A Full Tree

Levi Unwrapping

A Budding Star

Happy Boys

6 comments:
Great pictures!
It is hard having lost the parent you most identify with. For me that was my father.
My in-laws couldn't be bothered with spending x-mas with us. They have too many other more important things going on than to spend quality time with their grandchildren.
p.s. I tagged you!
Your boys make me smile. I just love the pics of them.
I'm sorry about your mother. Moms just know how to made Christmas special. And I know what you mean, there is just something special about opening a package.
Those pics are great! Your boys are so cute!
I'm sorry your Christmas with the extended family left something to be desired. (((HUGS)))
The boys are adorable. And I miss my mom too. Nobody loves you like your mom.
We didn't have any family this year so we cheated and went on vacation!! Had gifts but no tree or anything. It was nice to relax
I'm sorry that the holidays are so hard. I wish I could do something to make it easier.
We've missed you in chat. Hope everything is ok. Hope to talk to you soon.
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